Bucket List

We left for Korea one month ago. I have a really difficult time sleeping through the night. It’s something I inherited from my mother. I remember many times seeing her reading the Book of Mormon on those long sleepless nights. I have found it’s because we have a hard time turning off our brain. If I turn on Netflix sometimes it only takes a few moments, and I’m asleep. Last night it was Bucket List. Worked like a charm and it knocked me right out. When I woke up at 4:48 am, I started watching it again at the point when they start their Bucket List. They decide before cancer kills them, and they kick the bucket, they will go do all the crazy things they have only dreamed about. One of them is explaining to his wife that he’s taking off, even though he has a few months to live. She’s angry and says,” How do I tell our children you’ve given up. That you’re not going to fight!” She’s upset that she and her children will be losing time with him. He says something like, “I worked 45 years providing for them and giving them a good life”. He realizes it’s time for him to find himself! Wow! this movie was so profound for me at this time! A few months ago I was sitting in my home crocheting a sweater for my little dog (that she didn’t ever like). I wondered if that my children could stand on their own, what my life would be like. It is a little scary sometimes to get on your knees and say “I’ll go where you want me to go.” I found you should never ask the boss upstairs where he wants you to go, unless you’re ready to do it. Others would say to me, “I can’t leave my grandkids!” I have found our loving Heavenly Father sees the WHOLE picture. When you ask, he knows what’s best for everyone! We met couples in the MTC that were serving in SLC. To all of you, I send you the same challenge we have had spent our whole life trying to teach our children. “I’ll go where you want me to go! Where do you want me to serve?” I can tell you even when you have the courage to climb on that plane, doesn’t meant it will be easy flying. In fact, that maybe when the turbulence begins. It may be the time to get on your knees, and then you can beg to understand Lehi when he was down and out. You search the scriptures to learn how he regained his courage in the wilderness after Nephi’s bow broke. What I am trying to say is you still maybe facing what’s known as real life! You like, Lehi may have to learn to humble yourself and ask what now Lord? What I can tell you is with faith, he will clear the path, and show you the way.